"With man this is impossible, but with God ALL things are possible."
As I head into the women's retreat weekend I cannot help but think about my entire life and how God has had His hand on me every step of the way.
Almost a year ago I felt like God laid it on my heart to call this years retreat "The Impossible."
If I had a dollar for every time that I have felt or said the words "this is impossible, I will never get through this" then I would be a millionaire. In the 34 years that I have lived I feel like I have walked many difficult roads. Some have been public and others have been very private. I think that is accurate for many of us. I have felt the burdens of life just like everyone else and I have somehow made it to the other side of each them. Life is about the journey, walking through it, learning from it, and then somehow getting to the place where you can see some sort of light in the situation.
When I have planted my feet on solid ground, and decided that I was going to push through difficulty, God has always shown up in my life and He has always been given the glory. I didn't always deserve grace and I didn't always deserve second and third chances but His grace allowed me that fresh start time and time again.
As I raise these three little girls I am starting to understand the love that God has for me and the simple fact that He has my back and He does want the best for me. When I look at my girls that is all I think about. I love them deeply, I desire for them to be obedient so that they will not hurt, and I know with all my heart that I will forever have their back in any situation. There will be times when they are wrong, and they will need grace, and in those times I will press in and love them more. I will never abandon them.
The more I see that God feels this way about me, the more seriously I take every decision that I make. I want my words, my actions and my thoughts to be pleasing to Him so that I am allowing myself to be used by Him. There are moments where I fail miserably and then there are moments where I am obedient and because of that He shines.
It's scary to grow. It's scary to face our own brokenness and realize that we have some junk inside of our hearts that is not pleasing to God. It's scary to address conflict and it's scary to surround ourselves with other women that we may not know in efforts to tear down the walls in our hearts that took us so long to build over the years.
But you know what....it's worth it. Every second if it.
When we press in, and push hard to get to the other side of our impossible, we then see the light and we are never the same.
God has pulled through for me countless times in my life and my faith has grown each time as He has shown me that He has made my impossible possible. God is a master at healing marriages, putting broken families back together, breaking us free from addiction, and reaching goals that seemed unattainable at one point in our life.
Our part is simple....we just have to believe that He can. When we believe that He can, and when we give up all control, then we are able to face any mountain that may be right before us.
If you are reading this, and you will be at the retreat this weekend, I want to ask you to start praying for a heart that believes that God can change your impossible to possible. It starts there.
A few days ago Audree was having a meltdown right in front of the mirror in our hallway. She was feeling so sorry for herself. She would cry, then she would open her eyes to watch herself and just cry more. As I watched her do this I couldn't help but think about myself and the many times that I felt broken inside. We have all been there and many of us are still there. Brokenness is painful but at the same time God wants to use our brokenness and turn it into beautiful. He wants to heal us, put us back together and watch us shine for Him all of our days.
Beautiful things happen in our life when we fully surrender and let Him deal with our broken hearts. His ways are best and He is a master at opening our eyes to show us that His will for our life is far better than what we could have ever imagined. My family is here today because God did the impossible in my heart and in my home.
Believe that He can do the impossible in your life!
(I can't help but post this picture. It's absolutely pitiful. I promise I picked her up and held her close after I took it. I think many of us have stood in front of a mirror, cried and felt sorry for ourselves. I guess it starts at an early age:)
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