Love in motion!

Before I start writing about what my heart wants to write about tonight, let me just tell you what I am feeling right now. This picture of Cerly is what I am feeling....

Do you ever wish that you could just cry like that?! Just cry really loud and not have to worry about who is watching. Yesterday I told a friend that I felt like I was suffocating and I am still right there. I tried to avoid sharing this, because transparency doesn't always sit well with everyone reading, but guys that is exactly where I am at right now. I am a feeler and when others are hurting then I hurt too. Right now there are people around me that are hurting and it affects me so deep. I have never been good at balance when it comes to this. It is so simple to me. If people I love are hurting, then I am going to hurt right there with them.... 

I think I used the word suffocating because the hits keep coming and I haven't had a chance to catch my breath. As I was worshiping Sunday morning at church I think there was about 10 minutes where I could breathe and then I was right back to suffocating.

For the last hour I have thought about why I get into these moments where I can't focus, I can't work, I can't write, I can't do anything and I am still struggling on an answer. I think part of it is that I love hard. There is no other way to say it. If I choose to love you then I am all in....ups and downs...I am all in.

And right now there are a lot of people that I love that are on the "down" and there is nothing I can do about it. I have no idea if this makes any sense at all but I just had to write before I busted....or cried really loud like you saw Cerly doing in the picture. I might do that next...I wouldn't put it past me.

So anyway, that is where I am at. I am loving hard and hurting all at the same time. Please tell me I am not the only who has been there?!

Speaking of love....our church started something this last week that I think is amazing. It is called Love in Motion. Basically our Pastor challenged us to love big and love hard over the next year. He challenged us to be extra kind, extra giving, extra selfless, and extra loving to everyone around us.

And even though I know that loving hard isn't always easy.....I am taking the challenge to step it up and LOVE BIG in 2012. I am taking the challenge to share God with people that don't know God. I am taking the challenge to love people who make it very hard to love them. I am taking the challenge because God is a good God and I want everyone around me to know about Him!

The love of God can transform lives. He died for each of us because He loved us so very much....no matter what!!!!

I can't wait to put LOVE IN MOTION!!